You see, both myself and Adam Dunn, our other editor, grew up on the “Muddy banks of the Wishkah”. We were born and raised in Aberdeen Washington, a town that has seen an unfortunate destruction since the 1980’s. Shit, we even had a Mall! We went to the same carnivals, festivals, and yes, probably even the mall that the guys from Nirvana did.
When I was about 12 I heard of Nirvana for the first time and just as my interest was beginning to pique, that’s when everything blew up. Suddenly there were these two guys (Cobain and Krist Novaselic) who came from our town and they were becoming bonafide celebrities. Shit in Aberdeen was pandemonium. Suddenly, everyone “knew” them or were their cousin or some ridiculousness like that. Adam however, did have that connection, but that’s his story to tell.
I never met either of them (I would meet Novaselic six years later outside Olympia’s Capitol Theater – and that was embarrassing), but I felt a kinship with the man who put our sad little town on the map. He spoke to my generation and opened a door of social consciousness that was previously only cracked.
Unfortunately, I was never able to see the band live. I was all set to go watch them at Portland Meadows in August 1992, but one of Kurt’s overdoses incidences forced the show to be rescheduled to my second fucking day of high school. Rather than skip and take the trip to PDX like my other friends, I had to sell my ticket and wait to hear the stories.
Next thing I knew, it was two years later and I heard on the radio that Kurt had committed suicide. I felt hurt, betrayed, and let down. I wasn’t in Aberdeen when shit went sideways, and I’m glad for that, but maybe it would have helped me exercise some of the anger and grief that I still seem to carry about his passing today.
Fast forward to 2015 and the release of Brett Morgan’s Kurt Cobain: Montage of Heck.
My curiosity is piqued, but I can’t seem to will myself to see it. Adam said it best “Why do I want to see that, I basically lived it”. Cobain meant so much to so many people, but it seems more so to those of us in the Seattle area.
Last night, director Brett Morgan was at the Cinerama for the premier of the documentary and was met with some confrontation during the post-film Q&A. Have a watch below.
This has always been a hot button topic in and around Seattle, so it’s understandable that there were some people in the audience who felt that the viewpoint of the film was a bit skewed. Morgan insists that the viewpoint is all his and not influenced by Courtney Love or any other member of Cobain’s family.
I am a guarded person when it comes to Kurt Cobain because it still feels like he was ours, by “ours” I mean Seattle’s – Aberdeen’s – Montesano’s – Olympia’s. We still carry him as our tragic champion and many of our wounds have yet to heal.